Louder Than the Voices

I have one thing that I have prayed for fervently since the beginning of the year. God hasn't exactly said no, and sometimes I feel he has partially answered my prayer, in fact, as I look back, there has been a lot of ways I thought he said, "I'm working on it", but I am about to decide maybe he was really saying, "I'm working on YOU". I am in the pit band for Lincoln Trail's Musical, Into The Woods. I had never seen the musical before I started working with the band, but as I watch rehearsals, there are some themes that are very clear. The main one being, "Be careful what you wish for". Sometimes, I think we need to be careful what we pray for too. I am not going to divulge what my prayer is for. It is personal, and it isn't for me, but it would (or so I think) have to go through me, for it to be answered. I think if I face facts, it would make ME feel better if it went through me, that is probably the truth of the matter.  I have po...

I think I have lamented in the past few posts that life is crazy right now. I steal little chances at peace and refreshment anytime I can. Yesterday, it came in a trip to Paris. Thanks to the wonders of modern technology and a little SiriusXM subscription, I can listen to my Sirius XM in the work car. So, I tuned in my FM modulator on my hands free and viola! Now, to sit back and see what God was going to bless me with. And the song, Dear Younger Me came on. I had to laugh. Let me share the lyrics with you. Dear younger me Where do I start If I could tell you everything that I have learned so far Then you could be One step ahead Of all the painful memories still running thru my head I wonder how much different things would be Dear younger me, Dear younger me I cannot decide Do I give some speech about how to get the most out of your life Or do I go deep And try to change The choices that you’ll make cuz they’re choices that made me Even though I love this ...

What a week! I feel like I am in a giant hamster wheel trying to get from point A to point B and point B is nowhere to be found. Do you ever have those weeks? And the craziest thing is I am doing EXACTLY what I WANT to be doing, and I am loving every minute of it, but I am still on the verge of being overwhelmed. And my Savior knows I am feeling this way, this week during my quiet time, before all the craziness hits, He has sent me some remarkable words of comfort. The one that stuck out the most though: Matthew 11:28      Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. And He has shown that to me this week. Last night, I stayed at work until after dark, but driving home was a gift in itself. I was listening to the radio (Casting Crowns, Jamie Grace, Matthew West....good stuff!)  and was basically the only one on the road. I was trying to take in every little thing that God made that I could see. The stars, that beautiful moon, the clo...

In last Saturday's post I mentioned seeing a family friend who was in the final days of his life. The call came early Saturday evening, that Mel Blade had went home to be with the Lord. Mel grew up with my mom, and I grew up with his kids, we may not have the same blood running through our veins but to me, we are family. They have been there for me more times than I can count and every one of them are on my short list of people I know I can count on, and I truly hope they know they can count on me. It seems over the last few years, we have lost several of the people I looked up to and learned from. And it is dawning on me, kind of reluctantly, that I am becoming that generation for the ones younger than me. I read my Bible every morning, and would love to have Ruth Marrs' knowledge of the Bible, or Vaneta Carr's. You could be talking to them about anything in the world, and I swear, they could quote you a Bible verse (and reference) that goes with that situation. I try ...

There are days you wake up and think, "This is going to be a good day!" and then there are the days you wake up and your thinking, "Well, not so much". This past Thursday morning, I really thought it was starting out pretty okay. I needed to leave the house a little early to drop by the church and so I actually ended up at work 10 minutes early. 10 minutes to get started without the phone ringing and the normal ins and outs of my day, I would really like to get in the habit of going in an hour early everyday, or at least a half hour, that normally makes the day go smoother. Thursday, it didn't matter at all that I was there early. We have days when stupid things just happen. When several stupid things happen at once, it isn't good, and to me, it is frustrating. This day, we were already having some issues with some of the applications that had been brought to our office, I had just been informed that I had totally dropped the ball on getting a new computer...